"This illness is to fatigue,
what a match is to a nuclear bomb.
It's an absurd mischaracterization!"
~Laura Hillenbrand

October 23, 2007

I'm an Otter!

Last night I watched a video about an otter family that lives in a remote lake in Yellowstone park.

It was interesting, watching them go through the seasonal changes... but mostly it was just entertaining to watch how playful those otter are! They roll around, sliding on the ice, swimming circles in the water, playing with everything and they find and everyone they meet - even the methodical hard working Beaver!

As I watched them, I was aching to be free again to be playful and run and swim and twirl... sometimes this illness makes me feel very claustrophobic!

I haven't done much today to tell about. I cut up some Yuppo - a new paper I want to try painting on... but once I had cut the sizes I needed I was too tired to do more.

I had to take a nap - and yet I couldn't completely sleep. My toes suddenly became freezing cold. Once I warmed them up with a rice bag - my whole body was on alert, while at the same time too tired to do anything. I'm sure that sounds very foreign to anyone reading this who doesn't have dysautonomia. It's a strange experience.

I have a lot of favorite videos marked on YouTube. Here's one that always gives me goosebumps and makes me smile! Be sure to watch it all the way to the end... it's not very long. Hope it makes you smile too!


  1. Yep! Freezing toes, body on alert, but too tired to do anything-- I hear you!!! :)

    Hang in there with going off your meds AND having a cold-- you must be feeling extra cruddy. Big hugs!!

  2. (((HUG))) to you Kristen! Thanks for stopping by! And yes, you are one who can understand! :-)