"This illness is to fatigue,
what a match is to a nuclear bomb.
It's an absurd mischaracterization!"
~Laura Hillenbrand

March 22, 2008

A reminder....

Pause the Background Music (to the right) to watch this moving reminder.

Love to you all,
Melanie



March 13, 2008

Explanation


Well, it took me a couple days longer than I'd hoped, but here I am, to explain to you why I posted the lyrics and that song - lest any of you think I am deep in despair.

I am not. Though this song is a perfect representation of the journey I am on.

If you read/listen to only the first verse, all I have in my life is sadness and despair.

If you read/listen to the second verse - there is some hope, because at least I am turning to God. However, it's not as easy as it once was, to turn my heart to him - to worship him - and it's easy to start questioning whether he really is as near as he once was.

But if you listen to the last verse - you see that I have, not only turned to God in my darkness and loneliness and tiredness - I have found Him standing there beside me. He holds me up. He cries with me.

And most important of all - he accepts the offerings I give him in my weakness.

It's a beautiful song that balances the truth of pain, suffering and aloneness, with the joy of relationship to Him - Jesus, my Savior!

I love those chorus': This is all that I can give - yeah that's my everything" I know I don't "do" as much for God as I used to. But even the weakest moment of turning my heart and mind to him, doing the smallest thing as an act of love to him is giving him my everything and that pleases him.

I please God! In the midst of my weakness I can still give him everything. My "everything" plate may not look as full as it used to, but I please him as much as I ever did - and that is a comfort and joy I cling to.

"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you" James 4:8



PS: This painting of tulips was one of my gifts to God. They're called "March Tulips" because when I was growing up, tulips always bloomed right on my birthday (which is this Sunday!)


PSS: Please leave me some messages! I am kinda lonely and would love to hear what all my of you are up to! (HUGS)

March 11, 2008

This is All I can Say Right Now

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Is Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop 'n
Rest here a while

And this is all I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
And this is all I can say right now
And this is all that I can give,
that's my Everything.


Lord did You see me cry'n?
Oh and did You hear me call Your name?
And wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you set it down

And this is all, this is all that I can say right now,
I know it's not much.
But this is all that I can give,
Yeah that's my Everything.
This all I can say right now, right now,
I know it's not much
But this is all that I can give
Yeah that's my Everything.

I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

And this is all, this all that I can say right now!
Oh I know it's not much.
This is all that I can give
Yeah that's my everything.
This is all say right now,
I know it's not much, not much
Oh this is all that I can give
Yeah that's my EVERYTHING
Yeah that's my EVERYTHING
yeah that's my everything
everything!

(c) David Crowder