March 13, 2008
Well, it took me a couple days longer than I'd hoped, but here I am, to explain to you why I posted the lyrics and that song - lest any of you think I am deep in despair.
I am not. Though this song is a perfect representation of the journey I am on.
If you read/listen to only the first verse, all I have in my life is sadness and despair.
If you read/listen to the second verse - there is some hope, because at least I am turning to God. However, it's not as easy as it once was, to turn my heart to him - to worship him - and it's easy to start questioning whether he really is as near as he once was.
But if you listen to the last verse - you see that I have, not only turned to God in my darkness and loneliness and tiredness - I have found Him standing there beside me. He holds me up. He cries with me.
And most important of all - he accepts the offerings I give him in my weakness.
It's a beautiful song that balances the truth of pain, suffering and aloneness, with the joy of relationship to Him - Jesus, my Savior!
I love those chorus': This is all that I can give - yeah that's my everything" I know I don't "do" as much for God as I used to. But even the weakest moment of turning my heart and mind to him, doing the smallest thing as an act of love to him is giving him my everything and that pleases him.
I please God! In the midst of my weakness I can still give him everything. My "everything" plate may not look as full as it used to, but I please him as much as I ever did - and that is a comfort and joy I cling to.
"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you" James 4:8
PS: This painting of tulips was one of my gifts to God. They're called "March Tulips" because when I was growing up, tulips always bloomed right on my birthday (which is this Sunday!)
PSS: Please leave me some messages! I am kinda lonely and would love to hear what all my of you are up to! (HUGS)