It's been hard to follow my last post. My body is not doing well and though it IS still well with my soul - my heart grieves as I face this time of difficult, new and debilitating symptoms.
There's not much I can tell you. I have new joint pain. One day last week, my legs were so shaky and weak I couldn't get up the steps into my house. Today is the first day in week that I've even felt able to process enough words to add anything to my blog.
Am I scared? Yes.
Am I content? No.
I wish I could switch these answers...
Am I thankful? YES! At least I can say I AM thankful!!!
I am thankful that my friend Melissa has survived yet another bought with Sepsis. (This is a picture of Melissa and I when I was able to spend a couple of hours with her in Ohio this March). I am thankful for my computer and I am thankful that I have been given faithful and loving friends, like Emily, and Kristen, and Katey and Patti. They pray for me, process with me, laugh with me and cry with me. I am thankful for all the fun and wonderful art supplies around me. I am thankful that the library will mail me all kinds of educational videos. I'm thankful for a daughter who cooks for our family, a son who will take care of all kinds of needs around the house and a daughter who brought me a huge and delicious piece of chocolate cake! I'm thankful for my faithful husband. I am thankful for my recliner chair and my soft bed and pillows. I am thankful for medications.
There is so much to be thankful for!
I know God will help me with my fears and my contentment. He continues to remind me of my Primary calling in life - to LOVE HIM!
So today - I listened to one of my favorite online preachers - Alastair Begg of Parkside Church in Cleveland Ohio. He has such a wonderful Scottish accent and such powerful and truthful teachings. I am in the process of listening to a series called "The Strength of Weakness".... pretty apropos don't you think?
You can hear Alastair on the Truth for Life website http://truthforlife.com/
Thank you for checking in on me and reading my blog. You can pray for me to patiently endure this down time, to have wisdom in pursuing medical help, and that, soon, I could again answer "No, I'm not scared" and "Yes, I am content".